feel very immature once again for not looking at the greater picture and get excited over supposedly mundane stuff at this point in time. i haven't looked through my university application stuff at all after friday because of all the hectic-ness happening in my life now, but i know this shouldn't be a reason at all.

my life is just 100% procrastination. and i'm always waiting for a miracle. but now, i'm going to stop. after all, after all these years i've finally realized the cruel truth that if you don't put in any effort, you're not going to reap any profits at all. and it applies to every single situation.

그만하자. this isn't the time for this.