I want to re-live my high school life. Some people might want to re-live theirs as it was boring. But for me, it is in fact way too interesting with all the drama I got. However thinking back, that isn't what I wanted. Where did my study hard plan go?

Perhaps, I had been watching too much variety shows. Or maybe, I had been reading too much novels. But all of a sudden, I want to wear my uniform once again. I want to date again, and this time I want to have a cuter personality instead of being independent. Today while I'm at Tofu outing, my friends were saying that no matter how independent you are, in front of your boyfriend, you will become someone who is dependent over little things and letting them decide the minor details in your life for you.

I think I'm independent. So independent till I can seem a bit like a loner. But somehow, I don't know how to fully unleash the super excitable and bubbly side of myself show when I'm with a large group of friends. Its like I'm always trying to uphold a certain image. I'm sure some people and the closer friends view me as the hyper-active girl. On the other hand, there are times when I get shocked by how awkward and quiet I am even when I'm with a bunch of people I've known for so long.

My secondary school friends never ever believe me when I told them I've been labelled as a cold and introverted person since I'm such a loud and full of energy girl that can't be still for a moment when we're classmates. But, I think I'm getting warmer already even to the new friends. Even though, people will still say that they find me too quiet when they first see me, but then, hey, I've been told that I'm warm at heart though I might not show it blatantly.

I'm sure that maybe 3 months down the road, I'll look back at this post and wonder why did I try to analyze myself and stuff. I might be embarrassed by what I wrote since according to the first season of Sesame Player, this is somewhat a narcissist post. Nonetheless, the sentence formed themselves in my mind and I can't help but to type them. So, back to the original topic of wanting to go back to high school.