A little thing called love.

Just finished watching First Love: A crazy little thing called love and I can totally relate to it and i bet most of the people who watched this movie can. This movie is a reflection of an experience that lots of people have, even if they might not exactly have done the exact thing the female lead had done, but the feeling and anticipation is similar for almost everyone.

Somehow, I can see myself in the female lead. A lot of myself. The walking pass of classroom, the elation when he talks to you(even if its not face to face), the determination to improve yourself to make him notice you. And even, the last part about the failed relationship with a senior. I guess that's how first love is. Heart-wrenching, bitter-sweet and yet memorable. Most of the time, it doesn't work out or you don't have the courage to make the first move, so you try to move on or keep your attitude ambiguous, but at the end of the day, what breaks your heart most, what you think about the most, is that guy which you did so much to get his attention and yet didn't manage to end up together(at least at that point of time).

There may be a lot of crushes in one's life, but the most memorable one will be the one when you're still schooling and work the hardest for. Only when you're still a teenager, then could you have the right to be childish, do unlogical stuff for your crush, then keep them deep in your heart as a bitter-sweet memory. And it is only the pure affection you felt for the other party, without it being stainted by any factors, that will always be the most precious memory of that person.

He's not the first crush I've worked hard for. Before him, I've worked hard too. But maybe, its because he's the first crush that is not my friend. The first one where striking a conversation is not possible at all. That's why every spared glance, every little smile or the opportunity to be near him is so precious.

I don't think I can say I love him, or I like him as until now I've no idea how I feel at all. All I could say is, he will always be remembered by me as the guy that I've done a lot for, get excited a lot for and confused me to no end. (: