SMU interview

Having a headache and feeling nauseous now. I'm not sure if its due to the lack of sleep thanks to my mum deciding to vacuum the floor at 6+ this morning allowing me to get a 3.5hrs of sleep only or due to my nervousness. I'm a bundle of nerves today, the worst kind.

I'm going to have my first education related interview in 2.5 days time and i don't think I'm up to it. My friends had been super encouraging and giving me tons of support and help, but I lack the confidence to do it. Even when i roughly know what the interview is about, how i should act in front of the interviewers, I don't have a script i can memorize like for PW. I tried asking myself some of the potential qns that might come out, and I realized my english is just plain awkward and I stammer too much. Its like half of the sentence is filled with stammering and erms which i'm sure they won't appreciate.

Furthermore, I tried looking back at some of my audition experiences(which isn't much) as a reference and I'm unable to deduct any conclusion on what should I do. Go there unprepared without thinking about what sort of qns might be asked and depend on my wits last min or spend too much time pondering now till all I can rmb during the interview is to think of what I thought of today instead of focusing on the situation? I really don't know. I was so excited when my friends helped me get sufficient info on the interview to get me through, but now I don't know how it will be an advantage for me since I have no idea how I'm suppose to make use of it. And it doesn't help that I don't know what I should wear without over-dressing and yet still impressing the interviewers. Its just a confusion plus another confusion that seems to make my mind explode(figuratively).

Also, there's the issue of scanning the pass port size photo which I haven't got to doing yet even though I was informed about it 1 week ago. First my scanner is not working, then now when its working, I've no idea where my photo is. I just don't know what to do. To add on, the worry of not working hard enough and failing is haunting me, and I don't want it to happen.

I just hope that everything will turn out well in the end on Thursday since it seems to be an important day in my life with all the appointments I have on that day. Hopefully, what my friend predicts come through, and I'll really jump about celebrating my success in securing a spot in SMU!

Anyway, no matter what Fighting!