everything somewhat ended right now, and maybe i'll get a semblance of normalcy this summer. however, it is so difficult to revert back to my old life when i'm so used to my new one; where i rush everywhere almost everyday, try to survive on minimal sleep, can't wait to get on my computer everyday & is just basically complaining about the amount(or lack) of time i've for myself.

right now, it feels a bit disorientating. the fact that i've so much time to myself and i can pace myself in whatever way i want. its not exactly bad, but its definitely not good.

i couldn't get a summer job 'cause of my weird schedules, with enrichment courses every now and then, camp meetings and stuff from cca that i need to complete. but it feels like i've too much time at home. i know i've a lot on hand, and i'm on a really tight deadline for the video that i've to complete, but i just can't bring myself to do it. it seems as if procrastination has came back for me again. & right now, what i really want to do is to find some job or activities that will allow me to go outside, talk to people and probably, be less socially awkward at the end of this summer.

sigh, time to construct a summer timetable.

and, btw, i really want to get away from singapore