Last day of the first month of 2012.
So new resolution for no reason when Im sitting in my living room at 0715.
Yep, will stop whining about my work & boyfriend.
The latter is something that I somewhat feel guilty about since he's being so nice, but when Im tired & want to whine about everything he comes into the picture too.
So, will revert back to the person who don't whine about these stuff and is intensely private about it! (:
Looking forward to Friday! Going to mug real hard in the morning. And then spend quality time with my boy. (:
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
Tuesday, 24 January 2012
Just saw a quote on twitter/fb. "Everyone has that one crush that they can't get over." Not that I disagree with it, but if its true, doesn't it mean that if they don't end up with that crush, they're going to think about them for the rest of their life? And maybe, that's what's really happening. Even when you're married & old, you'll still think back and rmb that one person who had occupied your heart/mind for that brief moment when you were young.
It's not like you're unhappy, just that there's this what if?
Don't really know why Im analyzing it right now. But somehow it seems apt & interesting? And I seriously need to rewatch 500 days of Summer. Used to find it ridiculous but right now, I really get it. Relationships are somehow like this when you grow up.
Suffering from insonmia now & I've less that 5 hrs of sleep if I manage to sleep in 4 mins which is impossible. Should spend the time right now studying, but really cannot find my motivation.
Slacked for week 1 & even though I did work in week 2 its minimal. Its like time to really buck up, but then, Sighhhh. Let today be the last day Im slacking like this then.
I influenced you and he influenced me. Then, who's his influence?
It's not like you're unhappy, just that there's this what if?
Don't really know why Im analyzing it right now. But somehow it seems apt & interesting? And I seriously need to rewatch 500 days of Summer. Used to find it ridiculous but right now, I really get it. Relationships are somehow like this when you grow up.
Suffering from insonmia now & I've less that 5 hrs of sleep if I manage to sleep in 4 mins which is impossible. Should spend the time right now studying, but really cannot find my motivation.
Slacked for week 1 & even though I did work in week 2 its minimal. Its like time to really buck up, but then, Sighhhh. Let today be the last day Im slacking like this then.
I influenced you and he influenced me. Then, who's his influence?
Thursday, 19 January 2012
Feeling pretty lucky, even my boyfriend say that I have an easy life, which is kinda true right now.
Like I'm sorta busy now with 2 ccas and one event under my belt. And I have to do up a poster ASAP, do a video in 6 weeks and stuff, but still I'm happy. And my senior offered to give me free clothes from his blog shop!
Yeah, the only thing that is stressing me out right now is school work and my 5 mods. I'm totally unconfident for stats since I don't get anything that the prof is teaching and I'm somewhat slacking in my other classes since I don't have the motivation to study. Idk why too. Sigh.
Studies can go a lot more smoothly, and there's still lots that I have to learn. Thing with boyfriend is going pretty well, but well, you can only hope that things will turn even better. But overall, I'm still super happy. (:
So, YAY!
Like I'm sorta busy now with 2 ccas and one event under my belt. And I have to do up a poster ASAP, do a video in 6 weeks and stuff, but still I'm happy. And my senior offered to give me free clothes from his blog shop!
Yeah, the only thing that is stressing me out right now is school work and my 5 mods. I'm totally unconfident for stats since I don't get anything that the prof is teaching and I'm somewhat slacking in my other classes since I don't have the motivation to study. Idk why too. Sigh.
Studies can go a lot more smoothly, and there's still lots that I have to learn. Thing with boyfriend is going pretty well, but well, you can only hope that things will turn even better. But overall, I'm still super happy. (:
So, YAY!
真的忍不住懷疑你是否真的喜歡她? 或者只是喜歡上戀愛的感覺。 那個可以為別人付出， 彷彿做著世界上就偉大的事情般的感覺。
但是， 我也沒有資格批評吧。
幾乎是百分之百確定我們總有一天會為了這件事吵架， 但是， 我就是不想做也不想要有人逼我。
好朋友總是會給你鄋主意然後再跟你說你真的該有的態度。
只是有時候， 那種奇怪， 行不通的點子反而更讓人心動。
很討厭現在這個情況。
似乎， 我現在的決定會影響我下半輩子。
或許會吧。 但也有可能不會。
所以何必要我這麼早做決定? 可能我的決定會影響他人。
但， 這又不是能草率決定的。
難道要我在短短的幾天內就做出決定嗎?
但是我自己也不知道該怎麼辦阿?
又不是說我會繼續逃避一輩子。 只是現在真的還不是時候。 你們懂嗎?
我想在我腦袋很清楚知道我想要甚麼的時候去。
因為我認為這才是最負責任的行為。
但是， 我也沒有資格批評吧。
幾乎是百分之百確定我們總有一天會為了這件事吵架， 但是， 我就是不想做也不想要有人逼我。
好朋友總是會給你鄋主意然後再跟你說你真的該有的態度。
只是有時候， 那種奇怪， 行不通的點子反而更讓人心動。
很討厭現在這個情況。
似乎， 我現在的決定會影響我下半輩子。
或許會吧。 但也有可能不會。
所以何必要我這麼早做決定? 可能我的決定會影響他人。
但， 這又不是能草率決定的。
難道要我在短短的幾天內就做出決定嗎?
但是我自己也不知道該怎麼辦阿?
又不是說我會繼續逃避一輩子。 只是現在真的還不是時候。 你們懂嗎?
我想在我腦袋很清楚知道我想要甚麼的時候去。
因為我認為這才是最負責任的行為。
Monday, 16 January 2012
love how boyfriend is being so nice. it seems as though he can really sense what I'm feeling (which I always suspect he can) and that's why he's being extremely nice. the bus ride home today is really pretty awesome (:
still feeling very stressed out over some stuff, and I think that I kinda stressed him out too, but somehow, he's being real nice about everything. ever since last week. hearts (: which makes me suspect that there's a conspiracy going on.
my mum that I had missed so badly came back, but its not a happy meeting. we all kinda upset each other.sigh. its now a lot better though, hopefully it'll be even better (:
still feeling very stressed out over some stuff, and I think that I kinda stressed him out too, but somehow, he's being real nice about everything. ever since last week. hearts (: which makes me suspect that there's a conspiracy going on.
my mum that I had missed so badly came back, but its not a happy meeting. we all kinda upset each other.sigh. its now a lot better though, hopefully it'll be even better (:
getting a bit tired and stressed out, not only by school work.
somewhat feeling the stress and pressure setting in. still not ready for a lot of things, but somehow I have to face it or even accept it.
but, the problem is, I really don't want to do this yet. but, I'm in no position to reject it.
and, you who made me confused conveniently left again.
its like, I want to be left alone again.
i still like meeting up, but somehow, in this hectic week, I want some alone time, where I can be left with just my friends and nothing else.
its ironic isn't it, that after i strengthen my resolve on Wednesday, it changed this afternoon for no reason.
17 days.
I don't want it to end up the same way I think it will.
and this time, if it did. I'll have more than enough reasons to feel guilty.
somewhat feeling the stress and pressure setting in. still not ready for a lot of things, but somehow I have to face it or even accept it.
but, the problem is, I really don't want to do this yet. but, I'm in no position to reject it.
and, you who made me confused conveniently left again.
its like, I want to be left alone again.
i still like meeting up, but somehow, in this hectic week, I want some alone time, where I can be left with just my friends and nothing else.
its ironic isn't it, that after i strengthen my resolve on Wednesday, it changed this afternoon for no reason.
17 days.
I don't want it to end up the same way I think it will.
and this time, if it did. I'll have more than enough reasons to feel guilty.
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