school is stress.

All of a sudden, I feel so stressed. My studying plans have not been working even though Im not distracted by those online chats anymore. And even though I've completed all my allocated work it still feels as if I've tons to do. I don't know how I should study for my classes except to re-read the materials again and again and yet it still feels that I don't understand lots of stuff.

And now, I've a Java written test next week, a AS project where the teacher didn't even tell us what is it on, news that Im horrible at even the most basic Java programming, a LTB presentation that I'm not confident of and not sure if it will be counted to my total grades in 2 days time and a IS101 presentation in 2 weeks and we haven't even started on it. Idk anymore mann.

And I've school on Sat and plans to go out on Sun. I know I should just spend one whole day doing real hardcore mugging, but it seems to fail so terribly. Okay at least, I've managed to reach my quota for today just that yesterday's one is still unachieved. Mann, 3rd week of school and I'm already stressed out by all the work.

Just had to be real grateful that there are so many people by my side and that we are supporting each other through these difficult times. Really don't know what I will have done without them.

The Quiet World

The Quiet World


In an effort to get people to look
into each other's eyes more,
and also to appease the mutes,
the government has decided
to allot each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear
without saying hello. In the restaurant
I point at chicken noodle soup.
I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn't respond,
I know she's used up all her words,
so I slowly whisper I love you
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.


Jeffrey McDaniel

I'm Yours

When you find a friend, you find a treasure.

-Cars 2

I am a rich person then, since I've gained lots of treasures (: Anyway, school has been real crazy. I thought Smu students play alot, party alot, but now then I know, the real thing that we do a lot is mug. Its only the 2nd week, but I already had a grammar test, is going to have 3/4 presentations to do and tons of hw esp for academic writing. Oh mann, I can never stop complaining about how much I hate that subject. So much damned work and sometimes, I'm just so lost in class.

Have lots of work to do, but I shall be productive tomorrow and do it then. Today shall be a totally relaxing day where I just talk about rubbish with my seniors and then sleep again. And listen to Westlife alot!

Anw, I have this little fantasy about my future. If I ever have a crush and he sings Jason Mraz "I'm Yours" to me while playing the guitar, I'll date him right away.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkHTsc9PU2A&ob=av2e
I'm just obsessed with this song & "Lucky" (:

Its only the start of school and yet I've screwed up some stuff so badly.
I feel tired & sick both mentally and physically.

I need to start re-evaluating my priorities. But how could I do it when that's what my heart tell me is right?

Studying has been ineffective ):
Had been trying to at least meet a certain quota for studying but then I've been failing for every single day of the week & Im so sure I won't meet it too tmr. And I just remembered that I haven't finished a part of my AW hw! Life sucks majorly ):

Yeahh, but Im going to a new musuem tomorrow & I'll get to rest on Sat so life doesn't look so bleak right now. The lack of time and excessive amount of work is really stressing me out. I want to study all the time, but I get distracted by FB chat and stuff like that. And when I don't, I'll have the irritating miscellaneous matters to take care of. Haven't read through a single page of my Java book since Monday ):

Okayy, shall try to pick up the pace after I had my dose of fun tomorrow. To be honest, I don't know what to study for except to read the readings before hand & do the homework after that.

Anyway, this is my awesome Meta group sans Yuan Shiow. I cannot find a picture with all 13 of us /:

We Shake It!

In the end, I realized that I have not changed.
It is just that you all managed to bring out the fun side of me with 3 meetings and 3days spent together.

There are these little moments that makes me feel scared & lost,
But Im not going to look back
I'll only move forward from now on.

Even if I look like an idiot in the end,
I'll continue smiling.

My mum laughed at me when I told me I'm sacrificing my only off day today to go to school to mug. & I can understand why. Her daughter who treats slacking as the most important thing in the world is studying before classes start. But then, I really hate not getting what the teacher is teaching when everyone is good at it. It makes me doubt whether I'll be able to do well or am I just going to have a repeat of my Jc life. And I don't want to fail anymore, really.

That's the only reason thats motivating me to read up beforehand & maybe revise after classes. But after the momentum got broken on Thursday, its becoming real hard to pick it up. So hopefully, everything will turn out right.

Must mug doubly hard tomorrow to make up for the lost time today that I spent chatting online. Fb & Msn are going to be my downfall. Serious. So I'm not gonna sign in on both anymore & maybe cut down on the time I spend playing fb games?

I can do it! So I'm going to sleep soon & wake up early and lug all my stuff to school. Its at times like this that I wonder if not learning driving is a good choice. The books and laptops are so heavy that I'm depressed /: But ohwell, for the safety of everyone, me not driving is the best choice.

Oh mann, I really am not looking forward to studying ):

I love Java & Java love me.
So lets get closer & understand each other more.

School officially starting on Tuesday. Even though, I've already had a week of enrichment lessons, I couldn't help but be worried for the actual thing.

Thank god that I'm not starting tomorrow. Have to find a way to motivate myself to study tonight after the failed attempt in the afternoon.

Let this last forever. Let us be forever.

I want to throw in everything,
But what if it ends up like last time?

Meta is Love!

metamorphosis[met-uh-mawr-fuh-sis]: any complete change in appearance, character, circumstances, etc.

I used to think that calling the SIS camp Metamorphosis was lame since it just happens that the last three letters are SIS. But after going through the whole camp, I realized how apt it is. I had a 360 degree change in my personality in this camp. In FTB, I was the intorverted and quiet one, but in Meta, I can be enthu, loud and fun. Idek why I totally threw away my image like that, but it might be because I'm already more comfortable with camps after FTB and I wanted to have even more fun with them.

To think that I used to be skeptical about Meta since I'm close with my FTB camp mates. In contrary, I'm now friends with lots of nice people too! (: And, being outgoing is so fun. You get to do lots of wild stuff with your friends and participate in lots more games. And well, they've seen my ignorant side too. The drink coke with Mentos & your stomach will explode part. I seriously thought that will happen /:

The memories are still fresh but I don't want to recount every single moment. It feels weird? And we have to keep it within our circle of trust,hahahs!

Anyway, one biggest difference between FTB and Meta were the phrase we used. In FTB, our group's favorite phrase was Errr What? While in Meta, its Last Warning.

Meta!

Going for Meta tmr! (In my state of drowsiness, I nearly typed FTB) Was looking forward to it alot, but the wet shoes criteria kinda turned me off abit since I've no more wet shoes ): And I'm feeling wayy too tired now to feel any excitement at all. Still I can't wait to see all my camp mates and have an awesome time there since most people say that own faculty camps are the fun-nest.

Yeahhh, I planned on wanting to watch lots of videos before I go for camp. Like kind of a charger to last you for a few days without it. Hahahs, but I'll live even without watching everything I planned to watch. I'm wayyyyyyy too tired now. So, I'll just go and read my important dates dose of happiness and sleep!

P.s. I always think its a bad idea/sign when you blog right when the month starts since I've a feeling that you'll spam blog after that.

P.s.s Super Junior's album is out! Shall listen to it after I break camp since in my tired mode I'll be highly cynical towards it.

I'll be back on 5th! (:

Ao no Exorcist/Blue Exorcist

Ao no Exorcist: the anime that I went to watch because of 2PM singing the closing theme song and now, I'm hooked onto it and can't wait for the new episode to be released today. Its good(till I didn't want to skip any part even though there's a pretty big section on worm monsters /:) and I'm so glad that I went to watch it.

Its an anime about demons and exorcist and the main protagonist who becomes an exorcist is the son of Satan. The storyline is pretty interesting and this might be the first time that I like the main protagonist in an anime. Normally, I tend to like the minor characters more.

But then, I really like Rin a lot. Like all the main protagonist in most of the anime I've watched, he has the bubbly character and an easy-going attitude, but somehow he feels different(in a way that I don't know how to explain). I love seeing how he grows a bit more each time he meets a new challenge and there's a line that touch me real deep.

I'm not good at lying and tricking people.

This perfectly sums up his character.

However, what's real captivating about this anime(for me) is the dynamics of his relationship with his dad. It always make me tear a bit when they do a flashback on his childhood with his dad. Shiro seems perfect for a human. How he embraced his kid fully despite his differences and how his willpower comes from his determination to protect his son. Also, the ways he encourage his son to do better by appreciating what Rin had done before teaching him the right way to do things. It just touches me a lot. It just make you think about your own parents and their sacrificies for you.

It had been so long since I've last watched an anime that manage to attract me so much after Reborn! ended since my taste is kinda weird. Despite being in similar genres some work for me while others don't. Like how I love Ao no Exorcist but I didn't manage to finish xxxHolic even though they're a tad similar.

Ahhhh~~ Let's hope that I'll manage to learn some Japanese out of it too since I ditched my textbooks. Hahhas

Anyway, as much as I love Shiro's character, I can't help but laugh everytime I hear his name. Its like Shiro in Korean means hate, dislike but then he's a character full of love. The irony when a certain word exist in two different languages and the meaning is so different