Tuesdays with Morrie

When I started reading Tuesdays with Morrie, I didn't expect to be touched, much less feel so strongly for a book. I was worried about not having enough interest in it to continue reading. But this book is so captivating that, I didn't want the end to come at all.

When I bought books these days, I was concerned about the costs, and about saving money, that I'll easily compromise the quality of the book for a lower price. I had forgotten the joy of losing yourself in a book and learning a life lesson from it without a care for any other things. However, after finishing this book, I realized that maybe money isn't so important at all. No amount of it will be able to pay for the life lessons that you are able to learn from reading another person's experience in life and learning through it.

Somehow, I'm really glad that I've read this even though the idea of wetting my pillowcases this late into the night is not appealing at all. There are moments throughout the book that reminds me of my CLL teacher. The wise and old teacher that taught me so many lessons in life that I didn't appreciate until I graduated or before I read this book. Something I remember most vividly about this book is the fact that the teacher taught his students the art of paying full attention, which was what my teacher taught me too in my first consultation with her. She felt that I was too distracted with everything and is not paying attention to whatever she was saying at all, and then she taught me how difficult and yet essential it is to pay attention. At first, I did it out of fear that she'll realize my heart is not with her and the books, but, hopefully next time when I go back and find her for a chat, it'll be an instinct to me. An evidence to show her that I have indeed taken a leaf of her book and is listening to what she taught me well.

These days, I seem to be very in touch with the topic of death, be it in the novels I read or the drama I watched. I will like to believe that it is fate that I happen to chance upon all these at the same time. It is only when you see death in its most tangible form, even if its in a drama, that you realize the importance of how you choose to live you life and leave behind no regrets. I know it sounds highly ironic for someone who doesn't believe in destiny to believe in fate, but that's the way life is. Full of irony. I do think that all these are trying to teach me something that is so basic and yet have been neglected all along. Cherish what you have now, follow your heart and live your life without regrets. Only in this way, you'll be able to live a fulfilling life. And most importantly, keep your loved ones closed.

I think that they're reminders/teachings for me since I'm going to start college life soon. I've no idea how they're going to alter my life or change the decisions that I'm going to make in the future, but I only know that one day when I'm going to make a major career decision, or sth like that, I'm going to need it. Hahah, maybe I'll not go for a stable job in some big corporate and do something I want to do instead. And when I'm old and wrinkled and about to die, I'll look back and tell myself 'Good Job!'.
There's a line from Ahjussi that's etched on my mind these days.
'Others live for the future, I live for the moment.'

For me, death is still a very morbid topic that I'm afraid of. I don't hink I'll be rid of my fear anytime soon, but I'm real glad that I read/watched all these stuff. Maybe only when you remember that death is inevitable and unpredictable, that you start learning about how you should live everyday of your life.