If you wish to live, you will die. If you wish to die, you will live.
-Lee SunShin

2PM comeback

I've changed my layout to something so glaringly bright, but I guess its okay since I love the color blue a lot. And I really don't want to see my face on my header anymore. Hahs.

Anyway, I've just realized that I've quite a bit of view for the post 21 days of Kpop, so let's share the SUPM love! My blog view has miraculously picked up after the 20th. And as an avid fan of 2PM, I'm going to treat this as a sign that they'll do superbly well on charts and win tons of awards.

The thought and promises of blogging about 2PM's latest comeback had been passing through my mind so many times, been made so many times while I'm blogging, so I'm gonna do it today. To make myself feel good even though its nearly 3AM and I'm having a minor headache.

Out of all their comeback stages, I loved Inkigayo's the best. The atmosphere was real good and it was the best overall. Actually I would have loved Music Core's one the best since they made the whole stage seem like a mini concert for the Hottests, but the effects was real irritating and I couldn't really see how my boys are performing. The fancams showcased the whole performance in a much clearer view, which is kind of disappointing since the whole atmosphere and set-up was real good. Furthermore, Chansung is wearing my current favorite color, CORAL! Yeah, I was disappointed with all the weird effect Mu Core was trying on them. ): But tbh, I really liked the mini-concert stage. It fits in with the song perfectly. And I did wonder if they used a helicopter to take some of the shots

But moving back to Inki's performance, I thought how the boys interacted with each other at the start was good(just like in the case for Mu Core). What really set them apart from the rest was how they managed to create a mini concert feeling while capturing the performances perfectly. What Chansung was wearing was absolutely well-loved by me too. In fact, it had raised to the position of the most loved costume for this comeback.

I don't really have anything to say for Music Bank's stage since I can't really remember the tiny details of what happened. I was brooding badly and worrying about everything the first time round, and I only managed to capture emotions and feelings from the songs(like how good Junsu's expression is...). And even after I rewatched, everything is still jumbled up and incoherent(even in my brain). Well on the bright side, something good did happen that night (:

So, here's a clip of my fave stage!



oh! But I havta say I love Mu Core's Like a Movie stage the most, since they managed to include Chansung even though he didn't sing. And the spotlight on the various members was stunning. Though I'm jealous of the girl Chansung hugged >.< But its such a pretty stage.

I'm just going to have to rewatch everything again soon since its so fun and cute(:

Also, Like a Movie is moving up to be my favorite song of 2PM for this album. I used to like Give it to Me and HOT most, but now I can't stop playing Like a Movie. Its such a drastic change since I didn't like the song till I heard the chorus. However, its a real good song, and good job to Chance for doing it. I could tottaly imagine it being a Oneway song instead. Some parts esp the rap reminds me a bit of Rainy Days and I can't help but think how much better it will be if the whole rap is in english instead of half eng half kor. It sounds kinda cheesy like Eli's rap in 0330. But oh well, I still love both songs.

I've honestly wanted to retain the black bg of my skin since its PM's official fan color or change it to red since it fits in with Hands Up concept so much, but well, blue is cool too, I guess. And the skin is called ethereal which is secretly what I label Khun as most of the time, so its fitting!

I feel like sharing how I feel about all the songs so badly, but this post will be ridiculously long like some in the past again. So I guess I'll do them next time!

Btw, I'm having a real serious problem nowadays. Korean shows and music had been my main source of entertainment for so many days/weeks that I couldn't remember some words in English at all. Like I'll be thinking in English and then suddenly a Korean word will pop up in the middle of the sentence and I couldn't remember the English term for it. I'm so screwed for my English proficiency test. I couldn't even spell some bombastic words without checking with my phone's dictionary /:

Ahh, no matter what, I'm still gonna watch Wild Bunny again tomorrow!

I just have to add in this line even though it doesn't fit in at all.

Even if I’m dying I’ll never let my enemies know.
-2PM Don't Stop Can't Stop

There's another line that I love a lot, but I'll share it another time. I love the strong spirit of the song, ALOT.

I have so many things that I could share, and yet I couldn't formulate a sentence to sum up my current life.

I just hope that after PM successfully make their comeback today, I can finally get back into the mood of blogging as excessively as I used too.


Anyway, I don't feel like going for the SMU freshman camp /: Feeling way too lazy to socialize with strangers....

You know something is wrong when you start saving your old posts as drafts.

There are two kinds of happiness in the world. One is a happiness that you realize after the fact. The other is a happiness you feel in the moment.
-Jin Guk(Taecyeon, Dream High)

Writing.

When the holidays first started, I started my 'career' as a writer. At that time, it was plainly because I had nothing better to do and I wanted to find an outlet for my emotions, so I started writing.

I started off with the easiest topic of the numerous that were flowing in my mind, my boys. I poured out all the emotions I was feeling, and how I viewed them into thousands of font 12 words, feeling extraordinarily happy when I get recognition for it. Some of it seemed so childish, or far above my current level(which made me shocked when I re-read them that day), but somehow they're precious to me.

Yesterday while I was watching 2PM's comeback photos, I suddenly remembered my 創作 in the last 2 years. The short story that I wrote about EunHyuk and the 2PM related poem. I tried to find its file but somehow, it disappeared into thin air. But nevertheless, no matter how badly written it is, I felt proud of it. Maybe someday, I'll even find the chinese compo that I tried to write about Jay which none of my teachers or friends who don't know Jay, understand.

And so, I started writing again. In the same format as my EunHyuk's piece except that the language is different. But the laughter that will threaten to spill from my face due to what stupid confessions I make will never be gone.

Anw, this is one of the songs that never fail to make me smile everytime I hear it these days.

Not only is the tune cute, but the lyrics are adorb max! Hahas, maybe this can be my penguin song in the future (:

I shall rant about my PM boys when their mv teaser is released tomorrow ((:

And so sometimes, no matter how much you will it to happen, it is just so impossible.

Tuesdays with Morrie

When I started reading Tuesdays with Morrie, I didn't expect to be touched, much less feel so strongly for a book. I was worried about not having enough interest in it to continue reading. But this book is so captivating that, I didn't want the end to come at all.

When I bought books these days, I was concerned about the costs, and about saving money, that I'll easily compromise the quality of the book for a lower price. I had forgotten the joy of losing yourself in a book and learning a life lesson from it without a care for any other things. However, after finishing this book, I realized that maybe money isn't so important at all. No amount of it will be able to pay for the life lessons that you are able to learn from reading another person's experience in life and learning through it.

Somehow, I'm really glad that I've read this even though the idea of wetting my pillowcases this late into the night is not appealing at all. There are moments throughout the book that reminds me of my CLL teacher. The wise and old teacher that taught me so many lessons in life that I didn't appreciate until I graduated or before I read this book. Something I remember most vividly about this book is the fact that the teacher taught his students the art of paying full attention, which was what my teacher taught me too in my first consultation with her. She felt that I was too distracted with everything and is not paying attention to whatever she was saying at all, and then she taught me how difficult and yet essential it is to pay attention. At first, I did it out of fear that she'll realize my heart is not with her and the books, but, hopefully next time when I go back and find her for a chat, it'll be an instinct to me. An evidence to show her that I have indeed taken a leaf of her book and is listening to what she taught me well.

These days, I seem to be very in touch with the topic of death, be it in the novels I read or the drama I watched. I will like to believe that it is fate that I happen to chance upon all these at the same time. It is only when you see death in its most tangible form, even if its in a drama, that you realize the importance of how you choose to live you life and leave behind no regrets. I know it sounds highly ironic for someone who doesn't believe in destiny to believe in fate, but that's the way life is. Full of irony. I do think that all these are trying to teach me something that is so basic and yet have been neglected all along. Cherish what you have now, follow your heart and live your life without regrets. Only in this way, you'll be able to live a fulfilling life. And most importantly, keep your loved ones closed.

I think that they're reminders/teachings for me since I'm going to start college life soon. I've no idea how they're going to alter my life or change the decisions that I'm going to make in the future, but I only know that one day when I'm going to make a major career decision, or sth like that, I'm going to need it. Hahah, maybe I'll not go for a stable job in some big corporate and do something I want to do instead. And when I'm old and wrinkled and about to die, I'll look back and tell myself 'Good Job!'.
There's a line from Ahjussi that's etched on my mind these days.
'Others live for the future, I live for the moment.'

For me, death is still a very morbid topic that I'm afraid of. I don't hink I'll be rid of my fear anytime soon, but I'm real glad that I read/watched all these stuff. Maybe only when you remember that death is inevitable and unpredictable, that you start learning about how you should live everyday of your life.