I hate my brain at times.
I hate how it always forces me to analyze even the smallest matter.
Like how I will want to know the breakdown of timings.
Like how I will want to know the thoughts that is going through people mind's during a conversation.
Sometimes, if someone is important to you, you should just have faith in them, isn't it?

Why is there a need to always think of everything logically?
Why must I always have a reason for everything that happened?
Sometimes, all the reasons in the world mean nothing.
Or sometime, things just happen without a reason.
Like how you say you are going to make use of your time and ended up procrastinating.
Like how I cannot find a reason to justify why am I doing so badly in Compt Thinking when I do study no matter how hard I try.

If only I can show everyone else my logical side, and keep my emotional side close to me.

Comparisons might be the thing that will spoil all the relationships & make your faith start crumbling. 

But I guess, it is inevitable. 

At some point in time, you will want to be the most important person/thing in another person's life.

You will want your effort to be recognized. And when you realize that it is easily brushed off(even though that might not be the intention), you feel hurt. 

You will start misunderstanding every little actions, you will start having the victim mentality. Then, everything will go downhill from there. 

As compared to a team's effort, mine might be miniscule. But how I hope that by putting in that little bit of effort, it will get recognized. That you will realize I'm doing it specifically for you, thus, when you decide to change your original plan, I will be at the top of your mind.

Asking so much, and expecting so much.

Why am I a girl that needs to be coddled?