I don't know what to do anymore.
Am buried with work, but I just can't seem to finish any.
It is like, when I sit on my bed in front of my laptop, the only thing that I can feel is my weary heart. & how I just want to disappear and pretend that all these doesn't exist.
I'm incapable of handling all these. Maybe, I should stop pretending that I can solve all the problems when I'm in front of others.

'Cause the fact is, I can't.

I should start telling you all how lost I am, how I need more help. Then, I won't be so tired.
But the fact is, if I only have to worry about my own problems, then everything will be so much better.
But it feels like the burden isn't shared equally. I'm tired already, really. 6 weeks into the term, and now I want to give up.

What should I do?

This helplessness seems amplified when you pass this day knowing that this weekend isn't going to be the same as the rest.

expecting people to love you back the way you love them makes everything so much more difficult.

While everyone can only see my flaws, condemn me for being immature & judge me for being heartless.
Can anyone see whatever little goodness I have left within me?
Will there be anyone who can love me wholeheartedly for what I am?

Calculating each step.
Walking carefully as if you're treading on thin ice as you reach out for the thing.

What if the ice cracks?
In the water, you will flail your arms as you pray that help will arrive.

Yet the clock goes tick tock, tick tock.
Your limbs feel like lead, your heart starts beating slower, and you sink & sink & sink.

The thing stands at the opposite shore,
staring at you,
as it bids the last farewell.